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Dark Mood
out there would be best description somewhere between lost worlds not walking in the light and yet not in the dark either come along it's a good journey sometimes is where i stay home it is Losing myself in a song.... finding myself in a lyric..... writing a poem getting lost in the flowing of thoughts and letting pen be connected to it all forgetting ryhme or reason but going on depth of feeling and thought.. heart and soul passion and desire love and hate Sinking in the quicksand of my thoughts..... *sigh* so you see where i'm at then and like opposing forces on a battle field so do love and hate come together in the ether real for you can't have one without the other like good and evil they must off set each other for the other to survive and so the battle rages day and night shall i love or shall i hate must i decide can i do either? or is it to late For whom does the death bell toll for me each day as i sit here, i can feel deaths final breath upon my neck at night laying awake and trying not to sleep knowing if i do it may be the last for in the dark of night when dead things crawl and the coldness of death comes ever closer i can feel deaths fingers caressing my soul reaching for it touching me...and leaving it's impression upon me these are not just words on a screen this is how i feel each day and night sitting here waiting for the end knowing it is coming but not when that exact moment shall arrive but knowing it will be soon for i can't survive like this much longer and the scary thing is is there really a heaven and a hell? or will it be some cold dark place that i shall dwell i try not to think of such morbid things but with death so close how can i not for it is forever with me now in my thoughts try as i may, i can't banish them except sometimes in the light of day and so i come here to be with others possiblely find some cheer and yet here i am on a day speaking of things i rather not think about good thing i know where my keys are for it's hard to see through tears in a dark mood today
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